Should You Kill Yourself

 Should You Kill Yourself? Obviously not. No. Nah. Even if life's hard. 

Imagine if you try and you fail. Then you have to live with your screw up which is honestly embarrassing.  "Trying to take yourself out and not even getting that right.......Bonkers!!" I can say this because I have attempted to kill myself and failed. Tskk tsk.  SUICIDE IS BAD!! I think I still have ptsd from my attempt which is fucking insane seeing as this was aeons ago.

Do I still have suicide ideations ??? Yes . I even written goodbye letters and everything.  SUICIDE IS BAD!!!! 

But SUICIDE is A PERMANENT SOLUTION TO A TEMPORARY PROBLEM.  It's cliche but it's true. What's happening right now is just a phase and on the other side is unicorn and rainbows. Not the other side like after death. The other side of this dark point in your life. I'm sorry if my writing sounds sarcastic.  I'm encouraging myself as well and writing it down on a blog to make it less lonely.  PATHETIC. 

I' m still working on that self love thing. I look around and all the normal looking people and think to myself.  Do they have the same problems as me? Do they wake up in the night and cry??? Do they zone out for hours trying to find a way to put their crumbling life together? Do they push away their friends and family? Do they self sabotage???  I just feel like if they don't have at least one of these problems they're an alien and they are above having such human problems. I was going to put minor after such but I am a human and think my problems are rather important.  (Although sometimes I think they aren't.  My mind is quite complicated and I'm always looking for ways to invalidate my feelings)

AAnywho that is all. Goodbye for now folks and if any poor soul is reading this and thinking of taking the plunge. Remember: Suicide is bad. Put down the razors. Put down the lighter.  Throw away the rope and burn the letters.

It will get better eventually I believe.  Don't stay in hell. Find that little light and hold onto it and if you're fighting for a reason to stay that should be reason enough. Please stay

DON'T KILL YOURSELF ! Your death would not only affect you and if you're searching for your importance or purpose,  trust me one day you'll find it. I'm still searching. 

FROM JustaDreamer